“Who’s in the helicopter?” Bernard asks Rudd.

“Three went. Katania, Simi and the young doctor.”

“Simi?”

“Ja Fred. The doctors are worried about her hand. Got a cut on it that’s infected. They want her in Harare to check it out properly.”

“Wish I’d said goodbye. I liked her.”

“And she can sing,” says Bernard, closing his eyes and starting to hum Swing Low, Sweet Chariot.

“That’s the one!” Fred smiles.

“She can sing,” Rudd agrees, as Marybelle arrives. He helps Marybelle set her tray of coffee mugs down in the middle of the table. As she starts to hand around the mugs he notices the sweatshirt tied around her waist, and tilts his head to try to read the lettering. “Marybelle, what does your sweatshirt say?” he asks, straightening up.

She looks down. “Oh this? Came out of the school lost property. Old stuff that’s been there a couple of years. Says Mutorashanga Triathlon. And, before you ask, I did not take part.”

“What?” winks Fred.

“Fred!” Marybelle cautions, waving a finger at him.

As they drink their coffee they discuss the clear up – some of it done while others were cooking, much of it still to be done.

 “Weird thing is that looking this way, over the golf course, almost looks normal. Most of the trees down there are fine. Must have been sheltered in the valley. The rest is a mess though,” says Rudd.

 Father Norman’s gaze lands on Rudd like a magnet. “What are you going to do Rudd? Gave me the impression you might not be staying.”

Rudd looks at the priest. “No. Not staying. I’ve had enough. Taken a while to figure it out, but watching that helicopter take off, I wanted to leave. Spent way too much time hoping it’s going to get better. I need to try something else.”

“Oh Rudd …”

“Marybelle, please don’t give me a hard time. I need a break.”

 Fred coughs and clears his throat. “Good for you, young man. Go and have some fun. Find a place that works, and learn how it’s done.”

Bernard shakes his head. “Eish. Harsh, but true. Zimbabwe needs a new engine, for sure.”

“And the lodge?” asks Father Norman.

“The tea estate perhaps? They might be interested. Tonderai could run it for them I suppose. Don’t know. Have never asked.”

“But what will you do?” asks Marybelle.

“Might go to the Med – to work on the boats,” Rudd says, knowing it’s only a sticking plaster idea. He takes a sip of his coffee, and then places the mug down carefully. He smiles at Marybelle. “Time to start again, while I’m still young enough.”

 “Oh! Makes me so sad, Rudd. But maybe Fred’s right. Let us old bones stay here. I don’t even want to think about you going though.”

Fred coughs again. “Yes. I think it’s a good move young man. Go and take a look. Get out before you get corrupted, that’s what I say. Then come back. Come back when there’s more sense at the wheel.”

“For sure,” says Bernard, nodding his head. “Too much easy easy one side … too much nothing other side.”

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Rudd watches the helicopter until all that’s left of it is a black dot below the clouds. Then even that is gone. He envies Simi her leaving.

He looks across at Marybelle beside him, slight and still, her eyes fixed silently on the point of disappearance.

“Hope she’ll be okay,” Rudd says.

Marybelle turns to look at him. “Oh she will, Rudd. Simi’s strong. She’ll be fine, and the doctors are wonderful.” She smiles, as she tugs wayward strands of fringe out of her eyes. “I’ll say lots of prayers Rudd, and so will Father Norman here, won’t you Father?”

“Of course,” says the priest, bending slightly at the waist, hands clasped behind his back.

“Right,” says Rudd, suddenly impatient. “Well, there’s no point worrying. Let’s see what’s going on at the Lodge.”

He walks without talking, the grass squelching under his feet. As he walks the tension in his shoulders begins to slip away, its grip loosened by the sunshine and the birdsong, and by knowing that Simi is no longer his responsibility. Gradually the feeling of relief flickers into something like energy, and he lengthens his stride. It’s not his old energy, but a within-reach sense of resolve, enough to get going and to keep going. He takes a deep breath, then a few more, each filled with the richness of damp earth meeting the sun. At the grassy steps up to the lodge, he turns to wait for Marybelle and Father Norman.

“I think it’ll feel like we’re missing something without Simi,” he says.

“I know, but she’ll be back. She’ll miss us, I know she will,” says Marybelle, coming up beside him.

“I agree,” says Father Norman. “I can’t speak for Simi, but I’ll want to come back, especially after this. It’s such a beautiful place. We can’t just walk away.”

“Speak for yourself,” says Rudd softly, then adds a little louder. “Either of you fancy a cup of coffee?”

“Been dreaming of it,” says Marybelle, starting to climb the steps. “The doctors might have left some. I’ll go and see. Where do you want it?”

Rudd sees Fred and Bernard sitting around the table by the bar. “Why not with those two?”

“They’re up early,” says Father Norman. “Looks like their batteries are recharged.”

 “Morning, morning. Mind if we join you?” Rudd asks, as he and Father Norman go across to join the two men.

“Not at all,” says Fred, trying to stand up.

“Don’t get up. We’ll just pull up some chairs.”

“Good morning,” says Bernard.

“Good morning. Would you like some coffee?” Rudd asks, as he places extra chairs around the table.

“Already had ours,” says Fred. “Young Sal’s sorted us out. They’re all in the dining-room there, getting their bags ready for the walk to Mutare.”

“Oh, of course. That’s where Jen and Hansie were headed in such a hurry. Saw them coming up when we were on our way down to the helicopters.”

“Yes. They have a plan,” says Bernard.

“Not like us old guys, just sitting around. No use to anyone.”

“That’s gloomy talk Fred,” says Father Norman. “You’ve forged a path for us. You show us what good men look like.”

“Ha!” says Uncle Fred, as the priest pulls up a chair beside him.

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Simi’s head is full of images. They paper her fitful mind, collaging a path out of the billiard room, away from the storm, and back to the wedding. To the sunshine. The heat. The singing – sort of singing – and a hymn that goes on and on, round and round. Bright and beautiful … all things … bright and beautiful … all things … wise and wonderful … all things … On and on, round and round, little marshmallows of sound, slower and slower, soft and pink, on and on and on …

Simi’s head drops lower and lower, and finally on to her chest. Soothed at last into sleep, her fretting stills while the helicopter hums on and on towards Harare.

“If you … down … shortly will be … “

She jolts awake.

That voice again. The pilot.

She misses the words but lifts her head, turning her neck up and around to ease the stiffness. As she does so, she sees Dr Miriam watching her, and smiles. Dr Miriam sits back again.

Simi looks out the window. The land below looks different. It is the pale yellow of tall grass and dusty trees. And it is flat. No mountains. No deep green tea fields. No lakes. There are some fields. Some farms. An occasional cluster of homes.

The looking tires her. Her headache starts to tighten again, and her eyes to ache. She wonders how much further they have to go. Leaning back, she tries to sleep, but feels too awake. Too disturbed. Too in-between. Too full of headache. Her mind wallows. Helpless as a raft caught in a riptide it is dragged back into the billiard room. She sees a big table. A girl trapped. Fallen trees everywhere. And bricks. Piles of bricks. Her breathing becomes shallow and fast. She wants to help. She needs to help. To save that Girl. And those children. But she can’t. She can’t reach them. Something is holding her back. Holding her by the shoulder. Shaking her.

Simi opens her eyes. A hand is on her shoulder. Then it is on her forehead. Soft and cool. She turns, surfacing slowly. It is Dr Miriam’s hand. Her arm is outstretched, her face worried.

“Simi? How are you feeling?” The doctor lifts off her own headphones, and then Simi’s.

Simi tries to respond but has no strength. She feels too heavy, and the helicopter is spinning too fast, slipping around her, out of focus.

“Simi!” Dr Miriam’s voice again. “Simi. You need to wake up. We need to get you off here and to the hospital.”

“Off?”

“Yes. We’ve arrived. We’re in Harare.”

Simi nods, her mouth dry. She listens. The whine of the engines is gone. She looks out of the window, out at tarmac and low buildings, hazy in the sunshine. As she stares, she feels hands reach around in front of her, and click open her seatbelt.

“You okay to stand?”

She gets to her feet slowly. Her kaftan sticks to her in sweaty clumps, but she is too sore to care.

“We’re going straight to the hospital.”

The door of the helicopter swings open, and Simi, blinking against the bright light, lets Dr Miriam help her out into the dry Harare day.

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