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Story postcard – Simi and the story (1)

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As the pause in the story lengthens, Simi struggles to stay calm. Her mind is battered by the rain’s constant raging, and she cannot understand the upbeat energy of the others in the room, their banter loud, then drowned, then loud again. She tries to soak up some strength from the shine of Marybelle, but still every storm crash shocks her, each one racing her pulse to its limit.

She looks across at Tonderai leaning on the table like an actor in the wings, waiting for the weather to leave the stage. The sight of his ease steadies her a little. She studies him, her panic retreating as she does. His gaze is down, his face hidden, his mackintosh polished by shadow and flame.

Like a root, she thinks. Holding us. Slowly she feels the tension begin to ease out of her shoulders, and pulls the blanket a little closer. Then she closes her eyes, and decides to count, to carry herself off to bed like a child. Back in her childhood home the throbbing shove of the wind becomes the sound of London buses rumbling beneath her bedroom window. They brake, squealing, then accelerate away, while others return to collect more passengers. She hears their voices outside – waiting, joking. Her list of numbers grows longer … the buses quieter … the passengers distant … and the dark deeper …

Suddenly she snaps upright, neck aching. She looks around. Tonderai is still there, but now he is by the fire basket, sparks lifting around him as a fresh log settles into position. The room feels expectant, poised now the rain is no more than needles, and the door still.

“Tonderai please, what does Girl do?” Marybelle calls, other voices joining her.

 “Yes, Tonderai. More story please.”

“We can hear you now.”

“What happens?”

“We are ready,” says Bernard.

Tonderai shakes his head as though to clear it. “Aha. The story.” He holds his hands out over the fire as the sparks turn to young flame. When he begins, his voice is low. “Girl thinks and thinks. What can she do? She thinks so much that the Women get worried. Is Girl sick? No. Girl tells them she is thinking. She tells them that they must leave her alone. So they do, for they are too busy with their work to stop for long. Soon Girl will be married, and then she too, like them, will have no time to think. They know that this is the truth. They know that Girl knows that this is her path. But what they do not know, is that this Girl is not one for paths mapped out for her by others.”

Simi watches Tonderai lean back on his heels, eyes closed, arms crossed. His voice begins to rise.

“So, Girl sits and thinks. She sits and thinks for day after day. While the Workers work, and Grandpa feasts, she is thinking. Then, one day … ” Tonderai opens his eyes, “Girl stands tall. Her frown is gone. She raises her arms and shouts, loud enough for all to hear. “Yess! I have a plan.'” Tonderai stands, arms stretched high above his head, palms open. “Yes!” he repeats, his exclamation ringing through Simi, chasing out her panic. Her world is now Girl’s world.

Copyright Georgie Knaggs & The Phraser 2023

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Story postcard – the story (5)

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When Tonderai begins his story again there is a new edge, a steel edge, to every word.

“This is not good. This is bad for trouble, for now the Favourites notice Girl. They want to catch her, to hang her like a mouse by her tail, and then to beat her so others may know how strong they are. They want others to see that it is best to go quiet, and to go hungry. To see that it is safer to be silent, than to say that Grandpa is wrong.”

The rain begins to pound on the roof, and as it hammers Tonderai raises his voice.

“Girl knows this, but she is not afraid. She is brave, brave for others, for she knows that Grandpa is too greedy, and that he does not care for his People who live below. She sees that while his People suffer, Grandpa feasts and feasts. And that while he feasts those below must work always to fix his house, to keep it tidy, to do this, to do that. Yet, however hard they work, the prices rise, the money changes, their savings vanish, and still they do not eat. They have no chance to fill their stomachs, so that they too can grow to be strong. All this worries Girl, for every day she sees the People get weaker and weaker, and she knows that this is wrong.”

Tonderai pauses, and Rudd waits. The whole room waits. It is quiet now for the rain has moved on. When Tonderai begins again, it is with a question, his hands held palm upwards.

“But she is only one Girl. What can she do? As the days turn to months and then to more months, Girl sees that being furious is no good. It does not help. But she knows that she must do something, for if she does not, then who will?”

Tonderai turns and walks towards Rudd. When he stops he is so close, that Rudd can smell the damp and the smoke in his clothes. He can almost touch him, but he does not, for he sees that Tonderai does not notice him. His eyes are on the floor, deep beneath the water that sweeps in under the door.

“What is sad for Girl,” he says without looking up, “is that her beloved Uncle is tired, very tired, and with every day that passes he gets weaker. Uncle is not a well man, not a strong man. He is weak without good food, and there are no medicines in the hospitals to help him. What is worse is that his feet are twisted in. From the day he was born his feet face in, like this.” Tonderai hobbles away, his gumboots bent in awkwardly. “Uncle,” he says, speaking towards the dark, “can walk only on the outside bones, and this makes the People afraid.”

Then Tonderai walks back to the firepit, the hobble abandoned. “Uncle, who cannot reach the Table, is a carver but he is sick for lack of care. And there are no visitors to buy his carvings, for now they do not like to come to Grandpa’s House of Stone. Now …” says Tonderai, but he does not finish for sudden, pounding rain shakes over the billiard room. It floods in beneath the door, whining and slamming.

Rudd sits frozen, every sense deafened, and Tonderai waits, leaning against the billiard table.

Copyright Georgie Knaggs & The Phraser 2023

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Story postcard – the story (4)

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“This Girl,” Tonderai says, voice raised above the retreat of the wind, “she is like my Precious. She is a brave one.” He waits a few seconds for the flailing door to still, then clears his throat. “So, beneath Grandpa’s Table there are schools. Some are shiny new for the children of the Favourites, but many, many other schools – the faraway schools in the faraway rural lands, where they are not seen by many – they are falling down. So is the school that Girl must attend. But some days, many days, she does not attend for she is serving others. Or the school is closed. Or the teachers have no money to come to the school to teach. And anyway, in the classrooms there are no books and no desks.”

A cough from the bench interrupts. It is Bernard. “She is right. This gogo is right,” he says. “The schools where my people are from, those schools are nothing now.”

Rudd looks across the room, and sees the droop in the old man’s shoulders. The resignation in the shake of his head.

“Aha,” Tonderai replies, addressing Bernard, “I am sorry for that. There is too much that is broken.” He shakes his head, waits a few sombre seconds, then continues. “But this Girl, this very clever Girl, she will not be forgotten in these tired schools. Girl knows what she must do. Every day she is reading, reading – learning, learning, so that she may know more of how the world may be. And, she is lucky, for she has books. An old teacher, another gogo, sends these books to her, to her place beneath the Table. Girl does not know this gogo, does not know even who sends the books, but Girl does not mind, for at least she may read. And every day her reading gets stronger and stronger. She knows that this is good, so this is what she does. She reads many things, different things, when she is not serving others.”

Tonderai walks with slow, wet steps around to the far side of the billiard table. As he disappears into the shadows the wind pushes in through the door again, but it does not stop the reach of his voice, which rises louder with every beat.

“As the days pass, Girl’s learning grows like a river. It grows wide and strong, powerful as manzi when the rains come. And the more Girl learns, the more she sees that what Grandpa does is wrong. She knows that good leaders should not have Favourites. Favourites who carry guns. Favourites who grow fat like pigs. Favourites with golden pockets. Favourites who do not care that others starve while they feast. Sometimes, on brave days, Girl shouts and stamps her feet, but Grandpa only laughs. And when Grandpa laughs the Favourites laugh too. They shout down to her that one day they will squash her like a cockroach. Then they bang their guns on the table, and laugh again.” 

Rudd feels the words flick over the hairs on his arms, and run down the back of his neck, like the rain that scatters across the roof. Then he hears the clump of Tonderai’s boots coming closer, bringing the story with them.

Copyright Georgie Knaggs & The Phraser 2023